Mrs Verloc was a free woman.She had thrown open the window of the bedroom either with the intention of screaming Murder! Help! or of throwing herself out.For she did not exactly know what use to make of her *******.Her personality seemed to have been torn into two pieces, whose mental operations did not adjust themselves very well to each other.The street, silent and deserted from end to end, repelled her by taking sides with that man who was so certain of his impunity.She was afraid to shout lest no one should come.Obviously no one would come.Her instinct of self-preservation recoiled from the depth of the fall into that sort of slimy, deep trench.Mrs Verloc closed the window, and dressed herself to go out into the street by another way.She was a free woman.She had dressed herself thoroughly, down to the tying of a black veil over her face.As she appeared before him in the light of the parlour, Mr Verloc observed that she had even her little handbag hanging from her left wrist...Flying off to her mother, of course.
The thought that women were wearisome creatures after all presented itself to his fatigued brain.But he was too generous to harbour it for more than an instant.This man, hurt cruelly in his vanity, remained magnanimous in his conduct, allowing himself no satisfaction of a bitter smile or of a contemptuous gesture.With true greatness of soul, he only glanced at the wooden clock on the wall, and said in a perfectly calm but forcible manner:
`Five and twenty minutes past eight, Winnie.There's no sense in going over there so late.You will never manage to get back tonight.'
Before his extended hand Mrs Verloc had stopped short.He added, heavily:
`Your mother will be gone to bed before you get there.This is the sort of news that can wait.'
Nothing was further from Mrs Verloc's thoughts than going to her mother.
She recoiled at the mere idea, and feeling a chair behind her, she obeyed the suggestion of the touch, and sat down.Her intention had been simply to get outside the door for ever.And if this feeling was correct, its mental form took an unrefined shape corresponding to her origin and station.
`I would rather walk the streets all the days of my life,' she thought.
But this creature, whose moral nature had been subjected to a shock of which, in the physical order, the most violent earthquake of history could only be a faint and languid rendering, was at the mercy of mere trifles, of casual contacts.She sat down.With her hat and veil she had the air of a visitor, of having looked in on Mr Verloc for a moment.Her instant docility encouraged him, whilst her aspect of only temporary and silent acquiescence provoked him a little.
`Let me tell you, Winnie,' he said with authority, `that your place is here this evening.Hang it all! you brought the damned police high and low about my ears.I don't blame you - but it's your doing all the same.
You'd better take this confounded hat off.I can't let you go out, old girl,' he added in a softened voice.
Mrs Verloc's mind got hold of that declaration with morbid tenacity.
`The man who had taken Stevie out from under her very eyes to murder him in a locality whose name was at the moment not present to her memory would not allow her to go out.Of course he wouldn't.Now he had murdered Stevie he would never let her go.He would want to keep her for nothing.And on this characteristic reasoning, having all the force of insane logic, Mrs Verloc's disconnected wits went to work practically.She could slip by him, open the door, run out.But he would dash out after her, seize her round the body, drag her back into the shop.She could scratch, kick, and bite - and stab, too; but for stabbing she wanted a knife.Mrs Verloc sat still under her black veil, in her own house, like a masked and mysterious visitor of impenetrable intentions.
Mr Verloc's magnanimity was not more than human.She had exasperated him at last.
`Can't you say something? You have your own dodges for vexing a man.
Oh, yes! I know your deaf-and-dumb trick.I've seen you at it before today.
But just now it won't do.And to begin with, take this damned thing off.
One can't tell whether one is talking to a dummy or to a live woman.'
He advanced, and stretching out his hand, dragged the veil off, unmasking a still unreadable face, against which his nervous exasperation was shattered like a glass bubble Sung against a rock.`That's better,' he said, to cover his momentary uneasiness, and retreated back to his old station by the mantelpiece.It never entered his head that his wife could give him up.
He felt a little ashamed of himself, for he was fond and generous.What could he do? Everything had been said already.He protested vehemently.
`By heavens! You know that I hunted high and low.I ran the risk of giving myself away to find somebody for that accursed job.And I tell you again I couldn't find any one crazy enough or hung enough.What do you take me for - a murderer, or what? The boy is gone.Do you think I wanted him to blow himself up? He's gone.His troubles are over.Ours are just going to begin, I tell you, precisely because he did blow himself up.Idon't blame you.But just try to understand that it was a pure accident;as much an accident as if he had been run over by a bus while crossing the street.'
His generosity was not infinite, because he was a human being - and not a monster, as Mrs Verloc believed him to be.He paused, and a snarl lifting his moustaches above a gleam of white teeth gave him the expression of a reflective beast, not very dangerous - a slow beast with a sleek head, gloomier than a seal, and with a husky voice.
`And when it comes to that, it's as much your doing as mine.That's so...You may glare as much as you like.I know what you can do in that way.Strike me dead if I ever would have thought of the lad for that purpose.
