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第148章 PART FIFTH(23)

What I would really like to do--if you think he could be prepared for it,some way,and could stand it--would be to go to him myself,and tell him just what the trouble was.I'm in hopes,if I done that,he could see how I felt about it."A picture of Dryfoos going to the dead Lindau with his vain regrets presented itself to March,and he tried once more to make the old man understand."Mr.Dryfoos,"be said,"Lindau is past all that forever,"and he felt the ghastly comedy of it when Dryfoos continued,without heeding him "I got a particular reason why I want him to believe it wasn't his ideas I objected to--them ideas of his about the government carryin'everything on and givin'work.I don't understand 'em exactly,but I found a writin'--among--my son's-things"(he seemed to force the words through his teeth),"and I reckon he--thought--that way.Kind of a diary--where he --put down-his thoughts.My son and me--we differed about a good-many things."His chin shook,and from time to time he stopped."Iwasn't very good to him,I reckon;I crossed him where I guess I got no business to cross him;but I thought everything of--Coonrod.He was the best boy,from a baby,that ever was;just so patient and mild,and done whatever he was told.I ought to 'a'let him been a preacher!Oh,my son!my son!"The sobs could not be kept back any longer;they shook the old man with a violence that made March afraid for him;but he controlled himself at last with a series of hoarse sounds like barks."Well,it's all past and gone!But as I understand you from what you saw,when Coonrod was--killed,he was tryin'to save that old man from trouble?"Yes,yes!It seemed so to me."

"That 'll do,then!I want you to have him come back and write for the book when he gets well.I want you to find out and let me know if there's anything I can do for him.I'll feel as if I done it--for my--son.I'll take him into my own house,and do for him there,if you say so,when he gets so he can be moved.I'll wait on him myself.It's what Coonrod 'd do,if he was here.I don't feel any hardness to him because it was him that got Coonrod killed,as you might say,in one sense of the term;but I've tried to think it out,and I feel like I was all the more beholden to him because my son died tryin'to save him.Whatever I do,I'll be doin'it for Coonrod,and that's enough for me."He seemed to have finished,and he turned to March as if to hear what he had to say.

March hesitated."I'm afraid,Mr.Dryfoos--Didn't Fulkerson tell you that Lindau was very sick?""Yes,of course.But he's all right,he said."Now it had to come,though the fact had been latterly playing fast and loose with March's consciousness.Something almost made him smile;the willingness he had once felt to give this old man pain;then he consoled himself by thinking that at least he was not obliged to meet Dryfoos's wish to make atonement with the fact that Lindau had renounced him,and would on no terms work for such a man as he,or suffer any kindness from him.In this light Lindau seemed the harder of the two,and March had the momentary force to say "Mr.Dryfoos--it can't be.Lindau--I have just come from him--is dead."XI.

"How did he take it?How could he bear it?Oh,Basil!I wonder you could have the heart to say it to him.It was cruel!""Yes,cruel enough,my dear,"March owned to his wife,when they talked the matter over on his return home.He could not wait till the children were out of the way,and afterward neither he nor his wife was sorry that he had spoken of it before them.The girl cried plentifully for her old friend who was dead,and said she hated Mr.Dryfoos,and then was sorry for him,too;and the boy listened to all,and spoke with a serious sense that pleased his father."But as to how he took it,"March went on to answer his wife's question about Dryfoos--"how do any of us take a thing that hurts?Some of us cry out,and some of us don't.Dryfoos drew a kind of long,quivering breath,as a child does when it grieves--there's something curiously simple and primitive about him--and didn't say anything.After a while he asked me how he could see the people at the hospital about the remains;I gave him my card to the young doctor there that had charge of Lindau.I suppose he was still carrying forward his plan of reparation in his mind--to the dead for the dead.But how useless!If he could have taken the living Lindau home with him,and cared for him all his days,what would it have profited the gentle creature whose life his worldly ambition vexed and thwarted here?

He might as well offer a sacrifice at Conrad's grave.Children,"said March,turning to them,"death is an exile that no remorse and no love can reach.Remember that,and be good to every one here on earth,for your longing to retrieve any harshness or unkindness to the dead will be the very ecstasy of anguish to you.I wonder,"he mused,"if one of the reasons why we're shut up to our ignorance of what is to be hereafter isn't because if we were sure of another world we might be still more brutal to one another here,in the hope of making reparation somewhere else.Perhaps,if we ever come to obey the law of love on earth,the mystery of death will be taken away.""Well"--the ancestral Puritanism spoke in Mrs.March--"these two old men have been terribly punished.They have both been violent and wilful,and they have both been punished.No one need ever tell me there is not a moral government of the universe!"March always disliked to hear her talk in this way,which did both her head and heart injustice."And Conrad,"he said,"what was he punished for?""He?"she answered,in an exaltation--"he suffered for the sins of others.""Ah,well,if you put it in that way,yes.That goes on continually.

That's another mystery."

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