登陆注册
36840600000061

第61章 CERTAIN PREFERENCES AND EXPERIENCES(2)

Of other modern poets I have read some things of William Morris, like the "Life and Death of Jason," the "Story of Gudrun," and the "Trial of Guinevere," with a pleasure little less than passionate, and I have equally liked certain pieces of Dante Rossett I have had a high joy in some of the great minor poems of Emerson, where the goddess moves over Concord meadows with a gait that is Greek, and her sandalled tread expresses a high scorn of the india-rubber boots that the American muse so often gets about in.

The "Commemoration Ode" of Lowell has also been a source from which I drank something of the divine ecstasy of the poet's own exalted mood, and I would set this level with the 'Biglow Papers,' high above all his other work, and chief of the things this age of our country shall be remembered by. Holmes I always loved, and not for his wit alone, which is so obvious to liking, but for those rarer and richer strains of his in which he shows himself the lover of nature and the brother of men. The deep spiritual insight, the celestial music, and the brooding tenderness of Whittier have always taken me more than his fierier appeals and his civic virtues, though I do not underrate the value of these in his verse.

My acquaintance with these modern poets, and many I do not name because they are so many, has been continuous with their work, and my pleasure in it not inconstant if not equal. I have spoken before of Longfellow as one of my first passions, and I have never ceased to delight in him; but some of the very newest and youngest of our poets have given me thrills of happiness, for which life has become lastingly sweeter.

Long after I had thought never to read it--in fact when I was 'nel mezzo del cammin di nostra vita'--I read Milton's "Paradise Lost," and found in it a majestic beauty that justified to me the fame it wears, and eclipsed the worth of those lesser poems which I had ignorantly accounted his worthiest. In fact, it was one of the literary passions of the time I speak of, and it shared my devotion for the novels of Tourguenief and (shall I own it?) the romances of Cherbuliez. After all, it is best to be honest, and if it is not best, it is at least easiest; it involves the fewest embarrassing consequences; and if I confess the spell that the Revenge of Joseph Noirel cast upon me for a time, perhaps I shall be able to whisper the reader behind my hand that I have never yet read the "AEneid " of Virgil; the "Georgics," yes; but the "AEneid," no. Some time, however, I expect to read it and to like it immensely. That is often the case with things that I have held aloof from indefinitely.

One fact of my experience which the reader may, find interesting is that when I am writing steadily I have little relish for reading. I fancy, that reading is not merely a pastime when it is apparently the merest pastime, but that a certain measure of mind-stuff is used up in it, and that if you are using up all the mind stuff you have, much or little, in some other way, you do not read because you have not the mind-stuff for it. At any rate it is in this sort only that I can account for my failure to read a great deal during four years of the amplest quiet that I spent in the country at Belmont, whither we removed from Cambridge.

I had promised myself that in this quiet, now that I had given up reviewing, and wrote little or nothing in the magazine but my stories, I should again read purely for the pleasure of it, as I had in the early days before the critical purpose had qualified it with a bitter alloy.

But I found that not being forced to read a number of books each month, so that I might write about them, I did not read at all, comparatively speaking. To be sure I dawdled over a great many books that I had read before, and a number of memoirs and biographies, but I had no intense pleasure from reading in that time, and have no passions to record of it.

It may have been a period when no new thing happened in literature deeply to stir one's interest; I only state the fact concerning myself, and suggest the most plausible theory I can think of.

I wish also to note another incident, which may or may not have its psychological value. An important event of these years was a long sickness which kept me helpless some seven or eight weeks, when I was forced to read in order to pass the intolerable time. But in this misery I found that I could not read anything of a dramatic cast, whether in the form of plays or of novels. The mere sight of the printed page, broken up in dialogue, was anguish. Yet it was not the excitement of the fiction that I dreaded, for I consumed great numbers of narratives of travel, and was not in the least troubled by hairbreadth escapes, or shipwrecks, or perils from wild beasts or deadly serpents; it was the dramatic effect contrived by the playwright or novelist, and worked up to in the speech of his characters that I could not bear. I found a like impossible stress from the Sunday newspaper which a mistaken friend sent in to me, and which with its scare-headings, and artfully wrought sensations, had the effect of fiction, as in fact it largely was.

At the end of four years we went abroad again, and travel took away the appetite for reading as completely as writing did. I recall nothing read in that year in Europe which moved me, and I think I read very little, except the local histories of the Tuscan cities which I afterwards wrote of.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 天行

    天行

    号称“北辰骑神”的天才玩家以自创的“牧马冲锋流”战术击败了国服第一弓手北冥雪,被誉为天纵战榜第一骑士的他,却受到小人排挤,最终离开了效力已久的银狐俱乐部。是沉沦,还是再次崛起?恰逢其时,月恒集团第四款游戏“天行”正式上线,虚拟世界再起风云!
  • 孙有才的平凡人生

    孙有才的平凡人生

    茫茫人海中,谁是最闪耀的星,孙有才做不了,但是他绝对是最狠的。你可能血赚,他永远不亏
  • 如果坠落时也有星光

    如果坠落时也有星光

    “这是你遗落在我这里的心。”杜恒泽举着小小的玻璃瓶子,等着余微的反应。九年前那个暖融融的春天,他带着并不讨喜的表情出现在她眼前。也是这样不依不挠地问她:“同学,请问你几年几班的?”兜转至今,他依然执拗地站在这里,举着那颗保存了多年,被剥了壳甚至已经微微发霉的栗子——有两瓣果肉的栗子,笑得那么无害。是啊,那时候的他们还在一起,她说这颗栗子的形状像心脏,他居然就偷偷藏了起来。原以为,被所有人认定不得不分离的两个人,在这浩瀚时空中的某个点,一定会彼此遗忘,各自安好。那些烙印着疼痛与悲伤的年月也如坠落的星光般终将淡去。
  • 学院的才能危机

    学院的才能危机

    一所普通的中学突然遭到神秘组织的威胁,从此学院里的人都变得不在寻常。才能之争,从此开启。
  • 压寨夫人只想跑路

    压寨夫人只想跑路

    皇宫御花园,二当家盯着正满面春风收拾第九百九十八位无灵者衣物的陆栖,额头青筋一跳。一夜白头?她头发乌得很。悲痛欲绝?她嘴角快翘上天了。形容枯槁?啧,她身段好似还比半年前丰腴了些。拂袖要走,那满面春风的小姑娘忽然笑眯眯抬头。“公子,我美吗?”……我美吗?据说见过美娇娘的人都会被问这么一句。那个令人闻风丧胆的女刺客,美娇娘。跑路进行时,螳螂捕蝉,黄雀在后。
  • 超级斗士

    超级斗士

    一场白雾中,地球受到了外星生物的攻击,地球环境系的学生张天羽,本将度过无为的一生,但在灾难中却担起了拯救同学的责任。战斗中他发现,人类早已制造出基因战士对抗外星人,而他曾是因考试不合格而被辞退的基因战士。回归基因战士后,张天羽与战友们必须去拯救地球……
  • 无上黄泉

    无上黄泉

    天上地下,哪里是我的归属,村庄少年,如何闯出自己的世界。
  • 玄天九门

    玄天九门

    从小亲如兄弟二三人!因为高考的成绩差别从而分道扬镳!几年后,谁都不会想到,这三人之间却发生了不可思议的事....
  • 血凰花开:星渊殿下的凤皇妃

    血凰花开:星渊殿下的凤皇妃

    她,无心无情,雍容清贵。他,心智如妖,身份成谜。她穷尽一生,只为那抹染遍黑暗的血红。他算计一世,只为那双柔碎岁月的七彩水眸。那开往深渊之地的血凰花是谁的执念?又是谁的牵绊?“十年之后呢?”“离开。”“我想一起走。”“理由。”他微眯双眼,倾身一吻。“够吗?”“找死。”“深渊,我的名字。”她微怔,没了动作。深渊.......····················“你可以解脱的。”她木讷道“我可不想便宜别人。”他强笑,嘴角渗血。····················“真不愧是染呢。”他冷然道。最是无情人。“我护你”她转身拥住他。刹那间天降万剑,而他完好无缺。“染。”他颤声叫道。你这笨蛋。
  • 铁流铸宋

    铁流铸宋

    从抗日战场闯进来的赵虎,发现这是一个乱世,那一年,完颜亮没死成,赵跑跑当了岛主,现如今,北方鞑子攻势凶猛,大金廷左支右绌,要不,也造些先进武器,把他们全都赶去西边取经?