"Last night, in that room, when you thought I was talking to Dominique--"The pipe fell from his hand.
"What!" he stammered: "Back?"
Christian, without looking up, said:
"Yes, he's back; he wants me--I must go to him, Uncle."There was a long silence.
"You must go to him?" he repeated.
She longed to fling herself down at his knees, but he was so still, that to move seemed impossible; she remained silent, with folded hands.
Mr.Treffry spoke:
"You'll let me know--before--you--go.Goodnight!"Christian stole out into the passage.A bead curtain rustled in the draught; voices reached her.
"My honour is involved, or I would give the case up.""He is very trying, poor Nicholas! He always had that peculiar quality of opposition; it has brought him to grief a hundred times.
There is opposition in our blood; my family all have it.My eldest brother died of it; with my poor sister, who was as gentle as a lamb, it took the form of doing the right thing in the wrong place.It is a matter of temperament, you see.You must have patience.""Patience," repeated Dawney's voice, "is one thing; patience where there is responsibility is another.I've not had a wink of sleep these last two nights."There was a faint, shrill swish of silk.
"Is he so very ill?"
Christian held her breath.The answer came at last.
"Has he made his will? With this trouble in the side again, I tell you plainly, Mrs.Decie, there's little or no chance."Christian put her hands up to her ears, and ran out into the air.
What was she about to do, then--to leave him dying!
On the following day Harz was summoned to the Villa.Mr.Treffry had just risen, and was garbed in a dressing-suit, old and worn, which had a certain air of magnificence.His seamed cheeks were newly shaved.
"I hope I see you well," he said majestically.
Thinking of the drive and their last parting, Harz felt sorry and ashamed.Suddenly Christian came into the room; she stood for a moment looking at him; then sat down.
"Chris!" said Mr.Treffry reproachfully.She shook her head, and did not move; mournful and intent, her eyes seemed full of secret knowledge.
Mr.Treffry spoke:
"I've no right to blame you, Mr.Harz, and Chris tells me you came to see me first, which is what I would have expected of you; but you shouldn't have come back.""I came back, sir, because I found I was obliged.I must speak out.""I ask nothing better," Mr.Treffry replied.
Harz looked again at Christian; but she made no sign, sitting with her chin resting on her hands.
"I have come for her," he said; "I can make my living--enough for both of us.But I can't wait.""Why?"
Harz made no answer.
Mr.Treffry boomed out again: " Why? Isn't she worth waiting for?
Isn't she worth serving for?"
"I can't expect you to understand me," the painter said."My art is my life to me.Do you suppose that if it wasn't I should ever have left my village; or gone through all that I've gone through, to get as far even as I am? You tell me to wait.If my thoughts and my will aren't free, how can I work? I shan't be worth my salt.You tell me to go back to England--knowing she is here, amongst you who hate me, a thousand miles away.I shall know that there's a death fight going on in her and outside her against me--you think that Ican go on working under these conditions.Others may be able, I am not.That's the plain truth.If I loved her less--"There was a silence, then Mr.Treffry said:
"It isn't fair to come here and ask what you're asking.You don't know what's in the future for you, you don't know that you can keep a wife.It isn't pleasant, either, to think you can't hold up your head in your own country."Harz turned white.
"Ah! you bring that up again!" he broke out."Seven years ago I was a boy and starving; if you had been in my place you would have done what I did.My country is as much to me as your country is to you.
I've been an exile seven years, I suppose I shall always be I've had punishment enough; but if you think I am a rascal, I'll go and give myself up." He turned on his heel.
"Stop! I beg your pardon! I never meant to hurt you.It isn't easy for me to eat my words," Mr.Treffry said wistfully, "let that count for something." He held out his hand.
Harz came quickly back and took it.Christian's gaze was never for a moment withdrawn; she seemed trying to store up the sight of him within her.The light darting through the half-closed shutters gave her eyes a strange, bright intensity, and shone in the folds of her white dress like the sheen of birds' wings.
Mr.Treffry glanced uneasily about him."God knows I don't want anything but her happiness," he said."What is it to me if you'd murdered your mother? It's her I'm thinking of.""How can you tell what is happiness to her? You have your own ideas of happiness--not hers, not mine.You can't dare to stop us, sir!""Dare?" said Mr.Treffry."Her father gave her over to me when she was a mite of a little thing; I've known her all her life.I've--I've loved her--and you come here with your 'dare'! " His hand dragged at his beard, and shook as though palsied.
A look of terror came into Christian's face.
"All right, Chris! I don't ask for quarter, and I don't give it!"Harz made a gesture of despair.
"I've acted squarely by you, sir," Mr.Treffry went on, "I ask the same of you.I ask you to wait, and come like an honest man, when you can say, 'I see my way--here's this and that for her.' What makes this art you talk of different from any other call in life? It doesn't alter facts, or give you what other men have no right to expect.It doesn't put grit into you, or keep your hands clean, or prove that two and two make five."Harz answered bitterly:
"You know as much of art as I know of money.If we live a thousand years we shall never understand each other.I am doing what I feel is best for both of us."Mr.Treffry took hold of the painter's sleeve.
"I make you an offer," he said."Your word not to see or write to her for a year! Then, position or not, money or no money, if she'll have you, I'll make it right for you.""I could not take your money."
A kind of despair seemed suddenly to seize on Mr.Nicholas Treffry.
